​If you don't start a relationship right and with honesty, it may never 'get right'. 

I knew an adult who was really interested in someone much younger, which was not a big deal, because they both were adults. Apparently, he was feeling uncomfortable, which I guess is a good thing.  Some are not uncomfortable in a relationsihp with a 10 year age gap.  The person presented themself as a potential  business partner and trainer of the person he was intersted in.  (It was obvious to me that one liked the other but I didn't speak of it to either party. )

This "relationship' dragged out for years. It never evolved into what he wanted to begin with because he wasn't brave enough to be honest. The 'friendship' eventually dissolved in a hurtful way to the other party. 

Who's to says the relationship would have blossomed had the initiating partner been honest and just asked the other person out? Whether it worked out or not, it would have been an honest foundation to build on or to decide how to not build on it as in be friends, enemies, or nothing at all.

Both limped their separate ways uncomfortable in the smallest of interactions because they didn't start right and even ending it all still reeks of uncomfortableness. I don't see them as often as I would like. Both are great people. Both are successful in their own right, but have an awkwardness that could have been avoided had they began on the right foundation of honesty.

(On the flip side, I've dealt with people who approached me - nice or nasty - because they thought I was one or two decades younger than I was and they had the notion to reign over me or boss me around or condescend to me.  Depending on the length of our interactions, many times when I realized someone thought I was younger,  I had to determine when and how to tell them my age. When I did, in some instances people either got angry because they felt deceived although THEY ASSUMED my age and their superiority over me, apologetic because they had a clean heart and intentions, or just deserted me in the process because they couldn't switch from treating me as being  in some way 'beneath' them  to treating me like an equal or older-than-them (lol) adult.   (I don't have those issues now that I'm in decade 6. ) 

The point is:

Start with honesty if it's a potential love relationship and without arrogance, condescencion,  or a superiority complex if it is any other kind of potential relationship/partnership and don't ASSUME anything. 

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​This proverb is spoken by Jesus in Matthew 23:24. On His last trip to Jerusalem, Jesus spoke at length about life under the oppressive reign of the Pharisees. The religious leaders tested Him continually “and plotted how to entangle him in his words” (Matthew 22:15). In Matthew 23, Jesus pronounced seven woes against the scribes and Pharisees, accusing them of hypocrisy, laying heavy burdens on the people, exalting themselves, and preventing people from entering God’s kingdom. He was especially harsh in His assessment of their strict adherence to the laws of tithing while they “neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness” (Matthew 23:23). He concludes by saying, “You blind guides! You strain out a gnat but swallow a camel” (verse 24).

The KJV translates the first part of the proverb as “strain at a gnat.” That wording gives the impression of choking while trying to swallow the gnat while easily gulping down the camel. But the better translation is “strain out a gnat.” The Greek word refers to straining water through a cloth or sieve to remove impurities. The GNT translates it this way: “You strain a fly out of your drink, but swallow a camel!”

The Jews had a law that forbade eating any flying insects that did not have jointed legs for hopping (Leviticus 11:20–23), and in this they were strictly observant. Because water could have insects and insect larvae in it, pious Jews were careful to strain the water through a cloth before drinking it. They did not want to accidentally ingest an unclean insect and thus violate the law. Jesus mentions this practice in His proverb and then contrasts it with a hyperbolic picture of gulping down a camel. In this way, Jesus accused them of taking great pains (straining out gnats) to avoid offence in minor things of little importance, while tolerating or committing great sins (swallowing camels) such as deceit, oppression, and lust.

Christ’s fifth woe relates to the same type of hypocrisy (Matthew 23:25–26). All Jewish sects agreed on the need to wash their dishes in order to maintain their ceremonial cleanness, but Jesus pointed out that it is senseless to clean the outside of a cup and leave the inside filthy. But this is exactly what the actions of the Jewish leaders achieved. They focused on outward behavior but neglected the most important commands—loving God and one another. They strained at a gnat, mistakenly believing that external conformity to the law was enough, while not seeing that the evil in their hearts was a camel-sized problem. The Pharisees were scrupulous in counting out their mint leaves and tithing their “dill and cumin” (verse 23), but their hearts were full of envy, pride, greed, and malice. They strained at the gnat of ceremony, but they ignored the camel of sin in their hearts.

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​​I spent part of this month "fighting"...advocating.... for myself, (if that makes you non-
​fighters feel better - lol)! Yes, that. That is what I call it because that's what it was although it looked like something else. I'm serious - lol!

Anyway! I was moving along doing what I needed (healthwise), what I liked and what liked me. At some point, I had a feeling that eyes were watching. Why?!? Because that's what I deal with often, yet I still dismissed it because the flesh continues to hope things will change/I won't be the cause of unwanted attention that leads to arrows launched.  A few days later, the Lord showed me a snapshot of something changing, not for the good, but just because it was me...aka...and arrow would be shot.

The next day, I was sent to do an assignment I did not need meaning it worked against my health, and it did not fit me in other physical ways because I am who I am and I can't fit everywhere or just anywhere. I do what I'm told, even if only to prove that what others want for me that is not meant for me just won't work. 

I tried to find a video of an angry baby to attach but couldn't find the right one.  I imagined a baby who is sitting quietly and peacefully satisfied, then someone comes along and picks it up when it doesn't want to be and doesn't need to be fed or changed or anything at all, but was just fine, but that person wanted to hold the baby for their own pleasure.  

I pitched a fit while at the same time following proper channels with the powers-that-be to make my case.  I pitched a fit because I was quite angry about why they bothered me. I knew my fit was not at all necessary because I knew the proper channels to follow, had medical evidence and physical evidence plain to see, to back my case and knew God would help me win because I was there to do tasks properly, not half-way. 

The fit I pitched was for the purpose of showing them that I was not going to be a sitting target who would remain nice while they sought to mess me up! I came out swinging and acknowledge that they got the me who has gotten FED UP with always being the target out of 5, 100, 200, 1000s of other people depending on my past experiences. Maybe they didn't deserve that. They seemed to be low-key/higher class bullies or meddlers that weren't looking to do something mean all out loud like others I've encountered who wanted to known as bullies. Nevertheless, these two got me at a time when I had appropriately reached DONE. Yes, appropriately.  The only ones who want us to take being mistreated forever, always and with a smile or either 1) others being mistreated who don't know how to stand for themselves so they take a bunch of stuff that God was willing to free them from but they won't let Him, or 2) the ones iwth a twisted view of Christianity in tht they dish out mess in the flesh thinking they're helping God make you suffer and teach you how to let Him handle the enemy, or 3) the ones who never get chosen as a target and think they know what you are going through. 

The funny thing is one day when I opened my fan page, the first post I saw was something like "At the end of a day, have you ever looked back over how you acted earlier and thought all that wasn't even necessary?" I had to laugh because it was true of me and admit/post "YES. ME this morning! Guilty."


​​I spent part of this month "fighting". No, it was advocating for myself, (if that makes you non-fighters feel better - lol)! Yes, that. That is what I call it because that's what it was although it looked like something else. I'm serious - lol!

Anyway! I was moving along doing what I needed (healthwise), what I liked and what liked me. At some point, I had a feeling that eyes were watching. Why?!? Because that's what I deal with often, yet I still dismissed it because the flesh continues to hope things will change/I won't be the cause of unwanted attention that leads to arrows launched.  A few days later, the Lord showed me a snapshot of something changing, not for the good, but just because it was me...aka...and arrow would be shot.

The next day, I was sent to do an assignment I did not need meaning it worked against my health, and it did not fit me in other physical ways because I am who I am and I can't fit everywhere or just anywhere. I do what I'm told, even if only to prove that what others want for me that is not meant for me just won't work. 

I tried to find a video of an angry baby to attach but couldn't find the right one.  I imagined a baby who is sitting quietly and peacefully satisfied, then someone comes along and picks it up when it doesn't want to be and doesn't need to be fed or changed or anything at all, but was just fine, but that person wanted to hold the baby for their own pleasure.  

I pitched a fit while at the same time following proper channels with the powers-that-be to make my case.  I pitched a fit because I was quite angry about why they bothered me. I knew my fit was not at all necessary because I knew the proper channels to follow, had medical evidence and physical evidence plain to see, to back my case and knew God would help me win because I was there to do tasks properly, not half-way. 

The fit I pitched was for the purpose of showing them that I was not going to be a sitting target who would remain nice while they sought to mess me up! I came out swinging and acknowledge that they got the me who has gotten FED UP with always being the target out of 5, 100, 200, 1000s of other people depending on my past experiences. Maybe they didn't deserve that. They seemed to be low-key/higher class bullies or meddlers that weren't looking to do something mean all out loud like others I've encountered who wanted to known as bullies. Nevertheless, these two got me at a time when I had appropriately reached DONE. Yes, appropriately.  The only ones who want us to take being mistreated forever, always and with a smile or either 1) others being mistreated who don't know how to stand for themselves so they take a bunch of stuff that God was willing to free them from but they won't let Him, or 2) the ones with a twisted view of Christianity in tht they dish out mess in the flesh thinking they're helping God make you suffer and teach you how to let Him handle the enemy, or 3) the ones who never get chosen as a target and think they know what you are going through. 

The funny thing is one day when I opened my fan page, the first post I saw was something like "At the end of a day, have you ever looked back over how you acted earlier and thought all that wasn't even necessary?" I had to laugh because it was true of me and admit/post "YES. ME this morning! Guilty." 

My anger left completely the second week, when on my way to work, God reminded me he didn't show me what would happen for me to get mad about it. He showed me so I could check with Him on how to prepare. Like I stated earlier, I followed channels, got results, and should have skipped the anger part. 

This morning! Dream/Answer to situation a few yrs ago that I didn't understand why I was the villian!!! :
I exited a group meeting. Headed to my normal area. A person took me to another spot. I wondered. I knew that was one of the sacred spots but I went where I was told. I didn't know the machinations/decisions behind the scenes, so I obeyed her. Shortly thereafter, a livid group leader stomped back and forth passed me! I never saw the leader out there before. I had no idea what he was livid about but I knew it had something to do with me. He didn't address me or ask a question. He just angrily stomped past me back and forth a couple of times. I KNEW I needed to get out of all that because he seemed dangerous!

Fast forward to 1.13.2024 at 6:11am. God woke me up to remind me of the incident and told me what happened. That day, I was put in one of the 'sacred' spots, which I knew but was following directions! The Lord told me the person put me there purposely to defy or overstep the leader and to get me (whoever new person) in trouble. Consequently, I got treated like I was a bad child for the next 4+ years even though I didn't go back to the group (because he was acting like a raving maniac that day!).
I was not approached, questioned, called, emailed, corrected, redirected or asked why I obeyed or even who I obeyed. I did what I was told by the one who was going about placing people as if she was the one in charge of that assignment for the day. That wasn't the time to run back looking for the scattered group to ask should I do what she said or was she in charge or...?
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Approximately 2.5 years later, I saw a group officer who I was slightly acquainted with way before this. She was cordial but with an added glare at me. I didn't know what that was about! Now, I do...at 6:11am on 1.13.2024! Lord, You have a way! I don't know why You didn't tell me this back then or lead those people to search You for direction on how to handle the situation (because maybe You would have revealed to the leader/exposed the other person) or reminded them that mistakes had been made (by them) and to just calm down. (Although I didn't do wrong purposely - and she did or maybe didn't - there seemed to be no or very slow forgiveness from them in that and other situations concerning outsiders. Yet I have an issue with forgetting, so, there you go. )

Anyway, I thank the Lord for waking me early this to show me what all that was about way back then. There is a reason He showed me and a reason He waited. And we know that all things work together for good to them who love God, for them who are the called according to His purpose...Romans 8:28
 
 
 
 

​​Consider this: Some adult children do not want to give their life to Christ at their parents' church, especially if it took them a while to make the decision, because they don't want to hear about it at every testimony service.  
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Month One: Joe gave his life to Christ! Hallelujah! We prayed him in. (Joe rolls eyes thinking Lord, You did this. Not them. I came because of You.)

Month Two: I walked by Joe's car and saw his Bible on the seat.  He had his Bible in the car! (Joe thinking to himself: Really? Now, I need to cover my car windows or hide my Bible under the seat so they won't testify EVERY time they see me and my Bible.)

Month Four: I heard Joe talking to his best friend about the Lord. They were at the bbq talking about God! (Joe: Now, I can't even talk about the Lord without it being broacasted at testimony service.)

Month Six:  Parent/Deacon/Leader/Auntie: Thank ya'll for coming to Bible Study. Tonight, I'm teaching on how to study to show thyself approved, a workman that need not be ashamed.  I heard my nephew Joe - you know we prayed him in the church - giving scriptures to his friend.  He got a couple wrong but I'm sure the Lord got His point across to Joe's friend. God is good! (Joe rolls his eyes because he didn't know Relative heard him witnessing...until they told the whole Bible Study.)  

Sometimes, people don't want to because they don't want to hear about it, out loud and in public, every time they do something. 



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 A couple of weeks ago, I had a dream about myself and another woman changing the conversation. Her face was a little blurry but I felt who she was.  I had no idea she was experiencing somewhat the same thing I was concerning our lives being included in someone else's lessons. It goes along with the situation of someone who includes points from my old TPMs and new posts in their messages and in a couple of other forms of presentations.
 
I think it started in 2018. Blew my mind! They may have started before then but I didn’t notice because I wasn’t acquainted with them before then. I saw the videos, which is common knowledge to them that I watch their posts.  Well, of course, that made the videos more interesting and I definitely continued to keep up with the messages.
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This is not someone in the terrestrial (land/building structure) or internet radio business that I worked with. I would have no problem with them doing that. (My TPM recordings go back to 2006 and only I and the radio stations had them. I also have them in print and other ways they are saved.) Actually, I wouldn't have a problem with anyone who listened to the TPM'S back then or reads my posts about my thought provoking life experiences. 
 
The weirdness about this situation is that this person started including new tpms/sentiments/life reactions/etc I tweeted, posted or shared 2018 – present. The creepiness is that I eventually blocked them and everyone and everything I knew was associated with them on my three Twitter pages, IG and two FB pages. Tthey still did/do it with my newest and very specific posts, etc. I locked the Twitter accounts and they could still see and use my very specific (not general things that everyone or anyone may copy or share) tweets.
 
Before that particular dream, I knew others in their camp knew what he was doing. Then, the week before that dream, I ‘closed’ two of my Twitter accounts. The next morning after having closed those accounts, God sent me a dream of me sitting with the device in my lap, a man from his camp who I do not know, appeared and leaned towards me and said he was glad I closed the accounts because the hacking of my accounts was wrong and he wasn’t comfortable being a witness to it. That dream solidified the actuality of what was going on.  It's nice that my work was seen as needed by the leads to help the worried 'team' get through. It also would have been good manners to just come to me and ask.
God will reveal, won't He?
 
What's even more interesting is that the one doing the hacking has felt the need to search and use my words/thoughts/TPMs/etc to get something to present to others. 
 
Nice? Yes (BHU did teach us that we are a Resource). 
Hacking to get it? Wrong. If one will hack, even for what they call a good reason, you can bet they do other deceptive things. 
 
About a month ago, the Preacher said God will handle my enemies. Is this person an enemy? I guess so because he's deceptive.
The good they do? Valid.
The bad they do? Will be handled.
 
Watch, pray, get counsel and totally trust only God.

OH! I almost forgot about the dreams with the football players.  They represented the 'clergy' that used my writings for a 'season' to get their points/messages across. I received the dreams the last year of these happenings.  Was I a Joan of Arc type, leading the nervous men into battle against evil and to teach/lead/guide people in Christ? It's surely hard to keep the attention of the masses....over and over again...which would definitely lead to some nervousness and pure fear sometimse.  Read below.