Right? Wrong? Both?

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​​I spent part of this month "fighting"...advocating.... for myself, (if that makes you non-
​fighters feel better - lol)! Yes, that. That is what I call it because that's what it was although it looked like something else. I'm serious - lol!

Anyway! I was moving along doing what I needed (healthwise), what I liked and what liked me. At some point, I had a feeling that eyes were watching. Why?!? Because that's what I deal with often, yet I still dismissed it because the flesh continues to hope things will change/I won't be the cause of unwanted attention that leads to arrows launched.  A few days later, the Lord showed me a snapshot of something changing, not for the good, but just because it was me...aka...and arrow would be shot.

The next day, I was sent to do an assignment I did not need meaning it worked against my health, and it did not fit me in other physical ways because I am who I am and I can't fit everywhere or just anywhere. I do what I'm told, even if only to prove that what others want for me that is not meant for me just won't work. 

I tried to find a video of an angry baby to attach but couldn't find the right one.  I imagined a baby who is sitting quietly and peacefully satisfied, then someone comes along and picks it up when it doesn't want to be and doesn't need to be fed or changed or anything at all, but was just fine, but that person wanted to hold the baby for their own pleasure.  

I pitched a fit while at the same time following proper channels with the powers-that-be to make my case.  I pitched a fit because I was quite angry about why they bothered me. I knew my fit was not at all necessary because I knew the proper channels to follow, had medical evidence and physical evidence plain to see, to back my case and knew God would help me win because I was there to do tasks properly, not half-way. 

The fit I pitched was for the purpose of showing them that I was not going to be a sitting target who would remain nice while they sought to mess me up! I came out swinging and acknowledge that they got the me who has gotten FED UP with always being the target out of 5, 100, 200, 1000s of other people depending on my past experiences. Maybe they didn't deserve that. They seemed to be low-key/higher class bullies or meddlers that weren't looking to do something mean all out loud like others I've encountered who wanted to known as bullies. Nevertheless, these two got me at a time when I had appropriately reached DONE. Yes, appropriately.  The only ones who want us to take being mistreated forever, always and with a smile or either 1) others being mistreated who don't know how to stand for themselves so they take a bunch of stuff that God was willing to free them from but they won't let Him, or 2) the ones iwth a twisted view of Christianity in tht they dish out mess in the flesh thinking they're helping God make you suffer and teach you how to let Him handle the enemy, or 3) the ones who never get chosen as a target and think they know what you are going through. 

The funny thing is one day when I opened my fan page, the first post I saw was something like "At the end of a day, have you ever looked back over how you acted earlier and thought all that wasn't even necessary?" I had to laugh because it was true of me and admit/post "YES. ME this morning! Guilty."


​​I spent part of this month "fighting". No, it was advocating for myself, (if that makes you non-fighters feel better - lol)! Yes, that. That is what I call it because that's what it was although it looked like something else. I'm serious - lol!

Anyway! I was moving along doing what I needed (healthwise), what I liked and what liked me. At some point, I had a feeling that eyes were watching. Why?!? Because that's what I deal with often, yet I still dismissed it because the flesh continues to hope things will change/I won't be the cause of unwanted attention that leads to arrows launched.  A few days later, the Lord showed me a snapshot of something changing, not for the good, but just because it was me...aka...and arrow would be shot.

The next day, I was sent to do an assignment I did not need meaning it worked against my health, and it did not fit me in other physical ways because I am who I am and I can't fit everywhere or just anywhere. I do what I'm told, even if only to prove that what others want for me that is not meant for me just won't work. 

I tried to find a video of an angry baby to attach but couldn't find the right one.  I imagined a baby who is sitting quietly and peacefully satisfied, then someone comes along and picks it up when it doesn't want to be and doesn't need to be fed or changed or anything at all, but was just fine, but that person wanted to hold the baby for their own pleasure.  

I pitched a fit while at the same time following proper channels with the powers-that-be to make my case.  I pitched a fit because I was quite angry about why they bothered me. I knew my fit was not at all necessary because I knew the proper channels to follow, had medical evidence and physical evidence plain to see, to back my case and knew God would help me win because I was there to do tasks properly, not half-way. 

The fit I pitched was for the purpose of showing them that I was not going to be a sitting target who would remain nice while they sought to mess me up! I came out swinging and acknowledge that they got the me who has gotten FED UP with always being the target out of 5, 100, 200, 1000s of other people depending on my past experiences. Maybe they didn't deserve that. They seemed to be low-key/higher class bullies or meddlers that weren't looking to do something mean all out loud like others I've encountered who wanted to known as bullies. Nevertheless, these two got me at a time when I had appropriately reached DONE. Yes, appropriately.  The only ones who want us to take being mistreated forever, always and with a smile or either 1) others being mistreated who don't know how to stand for themselves so they take a bunch of stuff that God was willing to free them from but they won't let Him, or 2) the ones with a twisted view of Christianity in tht they dish out mess in the flesh thinking they're helping God make you suffer and teach you how to let Him handle the enemy, or 3) the ones who never get chosen as a target and think they know what you are going through. 

The funny thing is one day when I opened my fan page, the first post I saw was something like "At the end of a day, have you ever looked back over how you acted earlier and thought all that wasn't even necessary?" I had to laugh because it was true of me and admit/post "YES. ME this morning! Guilty." 

My anger left completely the second week, when on my way to work, God reminded me he didn't show me what would happen for me to get mad about it. He showed me so I could check with Him on how to prepare. Like I stated earlier, I followed channels, got results, and should have skipped the anger part. 

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